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I will be perfect in every way.
Watch me soar.

I was born with no knowledge.
But I was blessed to receive education and I got the best.

I was born being chubby.
But I had determination to make myself look better and now I am.

I was born alone.
But I stuck to my principles of integrity and I found my true love.

I was born in a broken and poor family.
But it is because of this and because of them, I will fight for a better life.

I was born with nothing.
But everything I have today, I earned it with my own hard work and perseverance.

Why should I not be confident of myself?
Impossible is nothing and nothing is impossible.

A poor, unruly, lowly me made it to the top uni in sg competing with the best.

I should never be ashamed of my "credentials".
INSTEAD, I SHOULD BE PROUD THAT WITH SUCH CREDENTIALS, I'M STILL STANDING BESIDE THE ELITES.

May the poor and defiant rise up and believe, what you are now is changing every single second, nothing is nothing and nothing is everything, we've all got something.

We may not have luck
We may not have money
We may not have intelligence
But we all surely have the ability to be hardworking.

It is a foolproof formulae.
Trust me, use it.

Eat like pig.
These few days like sieh hungry ghost.
Dowan to put on weight ): I'm still 2 more kgs to 43!!!

My right brow lost, draw halfway pen no ink. HAHA.


Sem One gna be over soon in about 4 weeks time. Mad fast.
I still don't like school. Find the people there really damn !@#$%@.

I DON'T EVEN KNOW WHAT WORD TO USE TO DESCRIBE.

They're like very enthu about studying?
Gan pua siao on, to the freaking maximum!

Cannot take it in this kind of environment ):
Why cannot just chillax for one second? Like don't talk/think about school work and talk to me about something else like r&b, food or holidays?

Sticking out like a sore thumb.
English also cannot make it everyday tio shoot, jitao toh until flat flat.

People want to know what's uni like. I will tell you today.
When you go to nus, its like you go into another realm.
A world of scholars and academicians.

The rule is simple.
Read, speak and eat textbooks.
Buy the textbook, burn it, boil it, swallow it.
Then regurgitate in the best way you can and tadaa you win!

For a moment, the whole atmosphere is so atas.
I feel polite and even act politely.

People actually hold doors for you in nus.
Everyone is HAPPY and nobody BITCHES. That is the fucking problem. It's NOT normal.

All the lianhueybengseng totally GONE almost like they've vanished from the face of the earth, I never heard anyone scolding hokkien vulgarities only fuck here, fuck there, fuck this, fuck that.

Everyone is really smart to death.
They have a encyclopedia mind, a brain of google.
THEY KNOW EVERYTHING. I DON'T EVEN READ NEWSPAPERS.

I didn't even know what the hell was H&M, I thought it was a music store. ><

Can you see my head banging wall.

It's not easy for someone like me, suaku plus xiangbalao, to try and fit into this kind of sick environment. No friends. No nothing. I just can't wait to be with my warrior next year, even though she's really atas she doesn't treats me in a different way. :)

I JUST CAN'T ADAPT.

I hate falling sick
Stop the damn headache
Once start crying cannot stop its like a bad flu

I really love my bf so much and I can't lose him dowan to lose him cannot live w/o him even though how fuck he is how fuck my life is I need this person so much so so damn much

I keep asking what should I do what should I do I know what I should do but I can't do it cos i can't kill two bird with one stone I can't stop hurting by stabbing my heart can I

All I want to is to have him by my side and nothing else matters

DO U ALL UNDERSTAND THIS FEELING? ):

Inspire

This was how I looked like last year, on my 19th birthday, GLOWING.


This is how I look like today, about 1 month after my 20th birthday, DYING.


LIVE LIFE TO THE FULLEST EVERY SINGLE DAY.

How?

Be afraid but have courage therefore, be brave.
You think everytime I go into the doctor's room, get those injections, do the blood tests and the scans, I'm really so fearless as I look? Hell no! I'm fucking scared but I keep telling myself its going to be over it will be okay. You think words of consolation helps? I'm going to lie on the operating table ALONE ok, no one will hold my hand say charlotte we here with u! So I btr not be a whiney loser.

Hold on to the things which matter to you, until the very end.
Have perserverance, giving up is never your option towards these things, be it love, a goal, a dream. You make it happen, you realize it, you live it. You give up on it, that's the end, it will be like it never existed.

Do not regret.
Regrets are painful. Believe in yourself and don't look back, we don't have time for that. What's done cannot be undone, so learn to live with the choices you've made.

Live cleverly.
Be efficient, save time, save mental resources for things worth it. Prioritize.

Keep trying.
Don't worry about the mistakes you've made, just try and do your best, try hard just hard enough to still be living cleverly. Nothing can stop you unless you stop yourself.


I PROMISE MYSELF I WILL GET MY DEGREE.
I will study hard enough to get through NUS.

I am still strong, I have always been strong.
People who think I've become weak, you are wrong.
It's just that I have choosen to be strong in some other way which doesn't seem impt to you but its crucial for me.

I don't need to explain my doings.
I trust myself to have the right judgement to do the right things.

I'm proud of my grades in school.
It's my motivation, I won't let anyone who once placed hopes on me, once looked up to me, once relied on me down. I may slip once or twice but I'll keep going.

YOU ALL BTR BUCK YOUR ASSES UP, ENOUGH WITH COMPLAINS, SELF PITY & WASTING TIME, FREAKIN START LIVING YOUR LIFE NOW!